Tuesday, September 28, 2010

24


WOW. I have not blogged in a long time...

This year has been a rollercoaster... I don't like rollercoasters. lol. I have gone from one of the happiest times in my life, to one of the hardest, and now I have come to a very pivotal moment. Everything is beginning to come full circle. At age 24, I've learned myself... I've FOUND myself... and now that I've found myself I'm gone off myself. -as humbly as possible, dont take it the wrong way. God is opening so many doors for me. He only did it, however, when I stopped trying to make my own plans. I mean I thought I controlled my destiny... Jeremiah 29:11.. It took me completely surrendering EVERYTHING to hear what He was saying clearly. God's telling me HE has plans for me- STOP TRYING TO MAKE YOUR OWN. Everything I was trying to do was literally just falling apart at one point. I wasn't focused-although I thought I was, I wasn't in position, I wasn't listening. I really had to check myself... It's a process.. and I'm still not finished, but God has brought me so far even in a matter of weeks. Literally. It's funny to me that we blame so much on the devil. Half the stuff I dealt with was self-inflicted pain! Sometimes you just have to be still... SHUT UP...and listen. Yall can't both talk at the same time. :)